Dear Masha, I've read your latest post. I've felt what you feel right now. I know that you are so sad and only Allah SWT knows what you feel. As one of your friends, I just want to tell you that "Please be tough". I knew it very well the feeling of losing someone that we really love. Just pray to Allah and everything will be ok.
Dear Masha, this quote is for you:
When someone walks away from your life, its not end of your story, its end of their part in your story.